Love

This is just a free write for me. I'm venting my current emotions. I've been with her for over a year now. Things aren't where either of us want them to be. I think about just giving up every day. But I have sat here and looked at old photos and cards, old posts on facebook and twitter and realize that I have never stopped loving her. I just forgot to keep it fun and new. I forgot to remind myself why I fell in love with her in the first place. I forgot to tell her that even to this day I admire her skin and eyes. How I love her drive and dedication. The things that made me fall for her were slowly the things that stressed me out. I forgot to look deeper than the surface. I lost the things who made me who I am. My words left me. I forgot to write. I couldn't write. I was in such a slump it blocked me mentally from who I am. But here I am just now figuring it out. And not a second too late. So here baby this is dedicated to you. Everyday that you come home to me and lay in the bed next to me I feel closer to you than the night before. I can't get enough of you. I can't explain how you make me feel. I can't measure the amount of love you have in me that's bursting at the seems. You have my mind all fucked up. I was so scared of you. Scared of feeling this way. I have loved and been loved but never to this magnitude. But it is what it is and nothing more. Love. I couldn't have stopped this even if I had wanted to. You set out to get me, make me love you. And you have succeed in that and so much more. I have fought and fought against this feeling since I had my feelings hurt before. But even then it wasn't this. I punished you for my past. I was miserable in myself. I didn't want this. Now that I do I may have lost you. God knows what He's doing when He places people in our lives. Everyone is placed right where He wants them. You're here right at the right time. I've known you before. In a past life somewhere. Maybe you were an artist who painted and I was a stay at home mom. Or you were a king in a castle and I was merely a servant who wasn't worthy of your time. Maybe it wasn't our time then. But it's our time now. Maybe we were perfect for each other then. We are perfect for each other now. Maybe we were soul mates then. We are soul mates now. Matching souls that will find each other now matter what time it is. Always destined to come back to together. We have found one another again. I have found you and you have found me. We are where we are at for a reason. Now it's time to over come the obstacles and make the best of everything. No more fighting. Work from here on out. Have fun from here on out. I love you no other explanations needed. Love always finds a way.